Elusive Reprieve

Crowe Bridge Conservation Area

Elusive Reprieve

(for the caregiver)


The reluctance was audible

Your day had ended

You weren’t refusing to help

You couldn’t find the energy


You had sought a place of reprieve

Embracing the ebbing demands

And now called again, feeling urged

Disrupting your rest, stealing your sleep


Not a sigh of refusal

It came from deeper down

Your body letting you down

The reluctance, your body not your heart


No veil, your response exposed

I cried, my heart ached

The honesty, the confusion

Oh to be betrayed by self


Author: Jasper Hoogendam

After 36 years as an educator my career ended due to a TBI. Renewable energy as part of 'walking lightly on this earth' has been and continues to be my interest since my teen years. Since early 2015 I have been learning to live with ABI (Acquire Brain Injury). I don't want to let my ABI limit the goals I set for myself. I'm living with a different brain, not a lesser brain. In sharing my day to day successes and struggles, I am better able to understand how my life had changed and begin to accept the change. In sharing my experiences I'm hearing from caregivers and fellow ABI's. I'm encouraged when my experiences are helping others understand some of the complexity of living with ABI.

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